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I got my Bum Genius order today!  Woohooo!  It just shipped on Thursday so I wasn’t really expecting them until Monday but, BOY, they’re FAST!  The diapers are so cute!  And I love that Cottonbabies lets you try one, wash it, and if you don’t like it, you can return the whole order.  So far I like Bum Genius better than Fuzzi Bunz because, for the same price, you get lots of cool features like a more adjustable waistband (hook and loop strip/closure makes putting them on a lot like putting on disposables!), a more finished pocket to put the insert into that folds over the insert, “laundry tabs” to attach the hook and loop tabs onto so they don’t snag everything in your laundry load, gussets on the legs so there aren’t any gaps for “stuff” to come out, snaps on the front to adjust the height of the waistband so that it can truly be a one-size-fits-most diaper.  No need to buy bigger sizes as your baby grows (although medium Fuzzi Bunz seem to be able to be used for quite a long time, too).  So far so good.  We used one today and it lasted about 2 hours with a standard Cottonbabies insert.  Tomorrow I’m going to try it with a hemp insert and see if it lasts longer.  I haven’t really tried any doublers or doubling up on inserts yet so I’m sure I can get more out of them when I try that.  I’m still nervous to try overnight because Princess Tater Tot is not exactly “Princess-like” in her peeing capacity.  She wakes up with a disposable diaper three times the size it was when it was put on her.  I swear it’s Expando-Diaper!  Anyway…

Have you ever noticed that some people just have “it”?  They just seem to do everything well.  Their houses look great and are tastefully decorated, they have a hugely popular blog, book deal, a job and three kids all while maintaining a size 4 body.  Or they’re involved in all kinds of extra-curricular things while still managing to give individual time and attention to each of their 5 kids and hold a job.  How do these people do it?  I can barely get the grocery shopping done and blog every other day.  I’m lucky if Princess Tater Tot gets a bath more than twice a week!  And I only have one.  One. Child. No. Job.  What the hell is wrong with me?  Lack of tolerance for “franticity”? (Yes, I did just make that word up)  An overwhelming desire to not have appointments in my life other than the occasional doctor’s appointment for me or Princess Tater Tot? (And actually, I’d even looove to skip the ones for me except that, if I fall apart, who’s gonna take care of The Princess?)  I guess I’m just not as driven as I thought I was.  Or maybe I’m just getting lazy in my old age.  I used to be driven.  I had to be to work and go to graduate school and do an internship at the same time.  To maintain the social life that I used to have (a loooong, loooong time ago).  Huh. 

Y’know I don’t think it’s that I’m not driven.  I’m driven to different things these days (and, no “drinking” is not one of them!  Yet…).  I am driven to be a good mother to The Princess Tater Tot and do what’s best for her no matter if I get my needs met or not (within reason, of course…don’t go thinkin’ I’m a complete Martyr Mama.  I know I have to take care of myself).  I am driven to have more balance in my life than I did before (do NOT get me started on the job I had when I was pregnant with Tater Tot…talk about unbalanced!) Driven to take the best care of my family that I can while not becoming a raving lunatic.  And while I’d really like to be “accomplished” in everything that I try, I think that my life has become more about finding joy in what I’m doing than doing it well.  This is huge for the girl who never wanted to do anything that would make her look or feel stupid.  That’s one of the things that I’m hanging onto with this blog.  Sure, I’ve got ads.  Yes, I’d love it if you clicked on them, visited stores and bought stuff.  But primarily this blog is for me.  For me to enjoy.  And hopefully for you to enjoy but definitely for me to enjoy.  Sometimes it’s hard not to get sucked into the “I only have two readers” trap but that makes it not as fun.  So I don’t let myself get sucked in.  And if you’re one of my two readers, welcome to my world!  I hope you enjoy your stay…