The Power of Laughter
It occurred to me today that there is something about being able to make this little person laugh that is so amazing. The power to be able to calm her, make her giggle, have her reach for me over anybody else is intoxicating. So much so that, when it momentarily doesn’t work, it can be devastating. When The Daddy’s charms work better than The Mommy’s or no charms work at all it can send the best of Mommies into a funk. I am no exception. I love to make Tater Tot laugh. That little giggle is the best sound in the world. And I will go to incredible lengths to hear it. Running around acting like a goofball. Making silly/stupid/ugly faces.  Jumping up and down like an idiot.  Dancing.  My dancing is enough to make anybody laugh and it’s pretty much a guarantee that Tater Tot will at least crack a smile. You name it, I’ll do it to get that girl to giggle!
It also occurred to me that I am pretty invested in this little one’s—for lack of a better word—approval. In having this kid like me. In my inexperienced first-time-Mommy brain, I think this is normal (and fervently hope it to be). That I will slowly but surely (eventually) give up that investment in order to be a good parent. In order to be able to set the limits I need to set and to allow her to exercise her independence. And that I will recognize the time for this when it comes. I hope I’m not wrong.
March 4th, 2007 at 12:56 am
Just playing around with the posting ; I noticed that after I click “submit comment”, it brings me back to the page where just the one blog entry is (not the whole month of entries), and to go back to where I was reading (I’m reading mid February to present in that order) I have to click on “February” under archives, and then scroll down to where I stopped reading. It would be more user friendly if once I click “submit comment”, that I would be brought immediately back to where I was reading. Yes, this is a really picky comment and you don’t need to post it, I’m just telling you for user feedback and don’t even know if you can do anything about it or if that’s the way all blogs work. Feel free to ignore it!
Also; I’m glad to see that you probably didn’t get sick! I imagine you would have posted about it.
And - I don’t think you can ever go wrong when you’re operating under your best intentions.
March 4th, 2007 at 7:53 pm
Yeah, I conferred with my “tech support” (little sis…it’s great to have tech support in the family!) and she says that’s the way the software works, unfortunately. Sorry! Maybe some day I’ll get different software…
No, we didn’t get sick. I’m so sorry to hear that you and Z did! I hope you two are feeling better!