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Hey there! We’re home! It’s good to be home. One thing I noticed right away was how relaxing it was to be somewhere that I didn’t have the responsibility to do the dishes after every meal or get the laundry done. I didn’t realize that it made such an impact on my level of relaxation until I actually got home and saw that I had left a mess! So last night after The Tot was down, I got to clean my house. Blech. But it needed to be done. So now things are relatively back in order and we are back to our usual routine.

Yet again I feel the need to take better care of myself. Sleep more, eat better, exercise more. It’s not that I don’t have the time, necessarily. It’s that I don’t have the energy. After Tater Tot goes to bed, I just want to vegetate. Sit at the computer or in front of the TV (when it’s working!) and do absolutely nothing that requires thought or effort. That reminds me, I’ve gotta figure out where we’re gonna take our TV to get it repaired. Anyway, I digress. Back to the better care of The Mommy. I’ve been feeling rather unattractive lately. Just shy of presentable and not anywhere near where I want to be. And before “lately”, I’ve been okay with that. For a while I just felt okay about where I was in terms of my looks. As I’m typing this I feel incredibly shallow but it is what it is. And, if you were to look at me you’d probably say “what the heck is she talking about?”. I know that I AM presentable, really. I am a very normal-looking Mommy. Not too skinny. Not too fat. Not too trendy. Not too frumpy. Just kinda there. Problem is, I don’t want to feel just there right now. I would like to feel actually attractive. Not Hot-Mommy attractive. No cleavage-baring plunging necklines or Hot Pants for me. Just noticeable and in a good way. Not in the “Wow, she should really pay more attention to how she looks when she leaves the house” kind of way or the “She’s a good candidate for 10 Years Younger” kind of way. That’s actually how I’ve been feeling lately. Like I could see myself on 10 Years Younger. Although, after getting my hair done last weekend, I do feel a bit better.

The thing about looking better is that it takes effort. Imagine that. I guess I just haven’t been willing to put in that effort until now. For whatever reason, I am now newly motivated to do that. We’ll see how it goes….