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I think that God is trying to teach me patience. Somebody sure is trying to! Between the TV repair going on three months and the cervical biopsy results going on a month now, I’m kinda wondering what the H-E-double hockey sticks is going on here!

I lost the battle with “not calling my OB/GYNs office” that I talked about here . A fat lot of good it did me. I got the office manager’s voicemail and no phone call back. Last time it took a month to get my results back they said it was atypical. Somebody had been on vacation, they were waiting for the doctor to review the results, the dog ate them, whatever. Obviously, it is typical that it takes that long. Patience. I’m learning patience. Or trying to. If they hadn’t told me last time that it takes two weeks, I don’t think I’d be expecting to have my results by now.

When I get impatient like this I kind of feel like I’m acting like the world revolves around me. I mean, what do I gain by finding out the results now versus a week from now? My impatience also flies in the face of my belief that everything in this life happens for a reason and that, ultimately, I will be okay. If they’re not calling me back right now, there is probably a reason for it that has abso-flippin’-lutely nothing to do with them and everything to do with what I am supposed to learn in this situation. That’s just the way it has worked in my life. But, I’m human and sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me, no matter what my core beliefs are. And I do need to practice patience. I’m kind of a control freak and I’d rather just do it myself than wait for you to do it. Unfortunately, I can’t really help them in this situation.

So, I am going to let it go (again) and wait. I’m not really good at that but I’m trying to get better. I want to be more….oh, what’s the word I’m looking for. I guess I’d like to learn to go with the flow better and stress/worry less. Just take things as they come. So *inhales deeply* I am going to go relax now before I go to bed *exhales*. Nitey nite!