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1.5 pounds, that is. When I wrote the previous post I really only had 8.5 pounds to lose to get to my goal of losing 10 pounds. As of yesterday I have 11.5. Yeah, I treated myself a little bit between Christmas and New Year’s. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted! It doesn’t sound like much to lose but when you’re 5′2″ and at the most you’ve ever weighed not pregnant, every pound counts.

So yesterday was the first day of Diet and Organize. It was a pretty good day. The Tater Tot hung out with me while I de-cluttered some parts of the office and rearranged things so her toys fit in there better. Dragged some empty containers out of the garage and sorted toys into them, snapped the lids in place and voila! Better organization! We’ll see how long it lasts. Her birthday is in less than two months and she’ll be getting more stuff so…

The other part of organizing is more “time/event/routines” organizing than “stuff” organizing and for that I think I’m going to go back to Flylady.net. I’ve known about and have been following the “Flylady guidelines” for a long time now but I’ve been seriously slippin’ for about 6 months. I read an email she sent the other day about waking up to a sink full of dirty dishes making you grouchy and I could totally relate. Last night was the first night in a loooong time that I made sure that the dishes were all done, sink was clean, high chair tray was clean and ready to go and my laundry was started. AND I got to bed at a reasonable time! I woke up this morning and thought “Holy cow! This is what it’s like to not have to hit the ground running in the morning!” It was nice to have that time to myself instead of having to start right in on “getting it done”.

It was kind of a challenge not to eat something sweet last night since I’ve gotten in the habit of having a little treat of some sort every night. But there really wasn’t anything left in the house that was sweet since I ATE IT ALL! And I was too lazy to go to the store and get a treat. More accurately, I didn’t want to feel like a complete loser trekking out to the store less than 24 hours after my resolution started to break it. Besides the fact that I’m really feeling like it’s time to just do this thing. I’m tired of looking back at the past month (or two or five months) and realizing that I’m in the exact same place I was before. I’m tired of thinking “If you had just stuck to it, you’d be there by now”. And I’m tired of wanting to look different. I know it’s not going to be easy. And maybe I’ll decide instead that I’m really okay with how I look and I don’t need to lose 11.5 pounds. It could happen. It probably won’t but it could!

It’s all about habits. Habits that keep me organized (or unorganized), habits that keep me heavier than I want to be, habits that keep me tired and stressed out. It’s all a matter of getting used to something different. Of course I expect the occasional slip-up but the trick is not to let it get back to a habit. Nothin’ wrong with a little treat every now and again!

So wish me luck!