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So the LEEP recovery has been going well. Today there was more “stuff” than the previous two and a half days and it was a different color. Yes, I am aware that I am typing about “personal bodily fluids” and I’m not entirely comfortable with it but, for those of you who have found my blog because you searched anything having to do with LEEP, I feel like I need to be brutally honest about my experience. I wish I had found someone’s blog telling me about the experience and recovery before I had the procedure. It may have helped me be a little less nervous. I thought I was home-free after the first day or two not having any actually red discharge. Until today. Not only did it change color but I also had cramping and pain. I’ve had this cramping and pain mid-cycle before so I didn’t think much of it until I went to the bathroom today. So I sat down, put my feet up and let The Daddy take care of Tater Tot and dinner. I haven’t been exercising strenuously since I am forbidden but I have been lifting The Tater Tot more than I probably should. She’s pushing 30 pounds at this point so she may qualify as “heavy lifting” which I am also forbidden to do. I think I’m still ok as the little instruction sheet they gave me said that some bleeding was normal for the first couple of weeks but I don’t want to take any chances. I’m not even sure what I think could be happening in there….

Oh well. Otherwise, life is pretty good. I have been more peaceful and more happy than I have been in a long time. Not much is different in my life that would warrant more peace and happiness than before. But, nevertheless, I am. I’m sure that it has more to do with a shift in my attitude and thoughts than a shift in my circumstances. Especially since I have been doing miserably on my New Year’s Resolutions. Yeah, no self-discipline whatsoever. Worse than before the holidays. I need to focus on changing habits day to day. Not focusing on the end goal and how I’m not meeting it. That’s not gonna work. So be looking in the next week for a post on changing old habits and building new ones. There’s gotta be something in there that can make things click…