On The Up Side
Ok, it’s been a while since my last post. I’ve had teensy bits of time to myself and have gotten some perspective. A little friend of The Tot’s has also been diagnosed with diabetes and we have been able to help a little bit. It is a horrible, horrible thing to go through. And it gets better. For now, I am on the up side of the roller coaster. And it is a roller coaster. There are times when life seems almost normal. Besides all the poking and measuring, of course. Times when I go to test her and her numbers all look good or, if they don’t look good, there is a pattern of them returning to normal at a specific time of the day. Or I know I can do something specific to return her to “normal”. Times when the docs and nurses are all reassuring and adjustments are made that make me feel more in control and less like The Sugar Bugs have taken over our world. Of course they have, but the illusion of control makes all the difference in my mental health so I’m hangin’ on to it.
Then there are the times when nothing looks normal, I am worried sick and I have to get up in the middle of the night to test her, further depleting any reserves (HA!) that I had. I am grateful that this is not one of those times. For now, I am going to enjoy the relative normalcy and learn all that I can so that, when we are on the next down side of this roller coaster, maybe it won’t be quite the drastic drop that it was before.
And I am going to enjoy my beautiful, funny, loving little girl. She is the best reason in the world for doing all that I do.
April 18th, 2009 at 12:18 am
Hello..I just happened upon your blog. We too have a 3 year old with Type 1 diabetes. she was diagnosed at 22 months (Oct. 2007). We live in central California and also have 4 other children. I am also a type 1, but diagnosed just this last January (a year after our daughter). I’m struggling too…i bet we could support each other.
Laura
April 28th, 2009 at 8:04 pm
Hi, Laura…I bet we could support each other and that would be great! Thanks for the comment. How are you all doing? Have you found tudiabetes.com? Very supportive people of all sorts…type 1, type 2 and parents of type 1 kiddos. Some days are better than others. Today Tater Tot had a scarily low reading after nap that shook me up but she bounced back really fast, thankfully. How are you coping with caring for yourself as well as your daughter’s diabetes? Take care of yourself and I look forward to typing to you soon!